I can't shake this overwhelming feeling of depression I have today. These rain clouds over my head never seem to truly want to go away. I'd like for once to be just a little bit happy, but most days I'm not sure if I can. I'm feeling just like a nobody, and maybe that is who I am in the sense of the world. I can't seem to dig myself out of the rut I'm in and it makes me wonder if I ever will truly feel alive.
Nothing productive today...but I was entertained by the game on my iPod called Gun Bros. Jut another way to forget reality I suppose. Reality seems to sink me like a stone often and keep me in the rut. I want to do greater things, but I wonder if I can will myself to do those things.
I've been trying out Google+ a bit more and while it is slow going it will be my social media, should I decide I want a social media at all. I might keep a small profile with this google name, and will most likely be keeping a name for people who know me in real life as well. I haven't decided as well. Online friends for this name, people I know for the other? The good thing about my profile with this name is I get to be somebody else for a while. I like going by a different name, being anonymous basically. Plus I like how much control Google+ gives over the information I send and receive.
It is apparent that I will never be using this blog for business, so I am contemplating taking down my one ad that so far hasn't paid a cent. It begs the question of how many people actually click on ads, probably not all that many really.
The best thing about my experiences thus far, it has given me the chance to learn a bit more of Blogger, and like all Google products it tends to be superior at least in my mind.
I decided to change my browser as well to Google Chrome, I'm showing my support for you Google!
I might make a few more tweaks to my blog as I feel in a better state of mind. I've come to enjoy writing like this and a bit of practice is a good thing. I have to write everyday or I'd truly go crazy. Today is just an off day, I don't think any one thing triggered me feeling this way.
Thankfully I have Twitter for my incoherent thoughts and Digg to explore the world a bit more closely that just what is on the surface of things.
I wonder if I am really cut out for social media, anti-social media perhaps, but I'm going to give it one more go with google+ and should I get bored, I've still got my blog and my tweets, which seem to fit my personality a bit more anyways.
I might go out and post my blog address somewhere, but I'm not sure where yet. I'm as always a work in progress.
This is the place I come to be with my thoughts. To remember where I come from and to imagine where I'm going. We cannot change the past but we can change the future.
I just wrote you a long paragraph, but it all disappeared :( anyhoo, you should try to play Angry Birds on chrome if you haven't already. My hubby loves it and keeps him amused.
ReplyDeleteI always hate writing long paragraphs and having them disappear. How do you do? Saw you have a blog now and I subscribed. I like angry birds and have it on my IPod--didn't know I could play it on chrome too, thanks :)
ReplyDeleteThanks for subbing, don't know what I'll be writing on there yet, but time will tell :) I think it hasn't been out on Chrome for awhile, so all the levels aren't on there yet, but it's so fun slinging those little pissed off birdies lol :)
ReplyDeleteCurrently missing how livejournal used to let me directly reply to comments instead of posting a new comment.
ReplyDeleteNo problem, glad to subscribed and I will look forward to it. It is your space to do with as you wish and I think you will eventually figure out what to do with it--in the meantime you can always play around with the layout.
Yes slinging those little pissed off birdies is definitely fun--I enjoy their war cries...and the mocking pigs if you miss, just makes me drop the hammer a little harder when I try again.